APRIL FOOL'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know, i know......was mean. i haven't played a single prank on anyone today! Pfft!
Welcome to April. i'm looking forward to a another new month with Master. He says He has some new things in store and i'm really looking forward to them. Yes, our relationship has changed a bit, but all for good. Change can be good sometimes. It has taken me awhile to understand that. Who knows, maybe one day it will go back to the way it was. Maybe someday i will move closer to Master? That would be a dream come true for me.
Yes, most of us know that LDR's are hard, but we also know that they are worth it. i've gotten so much satisfaction out of this relationship. More than any vanilla one. Do i struggle sometimes? Absolutely. Do i not want to do some of my routine? Totally! i sometimes tell Master that it is a good thing we are so far from each other because i'm not sure how He would take my eye rolling when i get an order. Ha! Yikes!
So something new. i've just told Master that i think i am forming a bit of social anxiety. Every time a friend asks me out i always make up an excuse not to go. i like to stay in the comforts of my own home. Anything outside of that makes me nervous. If i'm not familiar with something i stay away. It has to be something that i am comfortable with.
Tonight i was told that i have to go out. i also have two things that i have to do while i am out. One, wear my plug. Two, my collar around my leg. i know the reason for the collar. It's so i feel Him with me and know that i will always be safe. i've nothing to worry about. The plug, He told me, is to keep my mind off being nervous. i will be concentrating on the plug instead. i'm guessing the lesson here is to know that no matter what He will protect me and that i've no reason to be nervous. See what happens the next time i am asked to go out.......
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